the art of acceptance (Monday, October 19, 2009 / 5:02 AM)
"IPINANGANAK AKONG MATALINO, PINILI KO LANG MAGING BOBO"
(tagalog mode)
tanggap ko na kung anong kapalarang bigay sakin ni bro, hindi ko naman siya pwedeng sisihin kasi nga di ko rin naibigay lahat sa kanya, nagmahal lang ako ng palihim, nahihiya ako pag kausap siya. Siguro nga dahil crush ko siya, medyo hindi ako sanay. Pero alam niya yun! mahal ko siya, di ko lang pinadama sa kanya, umiiyak lang ako pag kausap siya, walang kwenta dba? wala akong masabi pag nanjan siya pero kung wala na hinahanap ko na. "Bob ong" nga talaga ei, nakakainis.
(english mode)
having him, is my happiness. But i dont understand how i love him, it feels like he's just giving me heartaches, but my heart says "NO! you love him!" but my brain keeps bugging me around and shout at me "ENOUGH!! it's too much sacrificing! he's taking you for granted!" But im better off this way, too emotional, too used of being hurt, too much sacrifices. But I LOVE HIM! he is the only one i love!!! i can't let go of him cause he's the only one i got. Im so dull, so coward, so stupid! If only i could turn back time, then i would do this things:
i'll listen ti his jokes, and laugh to think that im happy with him.
i'll kiss him when i see him staring at me.
i'll hug him when he sing.
i'll lend him my letters everyday.
i'll be sweeter than what i am now.
i'll never let him go.
i'll love him FOREVERMORE.
(bisaya mode)
kung pwede palang, buhaton nako tanan para ma.okey natang duha.
