existence of my happiness (Wednesday, September 23, 2009 / 6:21 AM)
i am now back. back in the world of blogging, i missed the times when i feel relaxed doing any stuff. i know, it's too way difficult now. I've been through lots of plates and research work, been conquired with mr.stress. how can i help things out when all i can do is helping it in? Im lazy. Im slow learner, far from the old me, from the real me. I am afraid that i would lose my senses because of my job. I am now indeed a certified, "far sighted". I am now prone to dizziness and headaches. arggh! this life is closely closer to death. But time won't let me stop. time is the only way to success. if i continue this life, who knows? i may become one of the most leading architect right? But as of now, honestly speaking.. i feel like giving up. what's the essence of giving my family a happy life is that, they are expecting to have a huge house designed by me. Perhaps, that's the only one they like to have before leaving. I can't assure them that it would just be an itsy bitsy job like a chicken noodle soup. That's way easy. and it's quite hard. You know what? living a life means a great fulfillment of happiness, just thinking that you exist, and you have lots of friends around you and someone who loves you. (maybe not at all time --harry) yet, it's a great pleasure that you contibuted something in this world. For me, i am the future. the future of my own family, my friends and my loveones. maybe they just dont know, how deep is my effort and sacrifices to achieve my goals. a house!!! a home!!! a family!!! that's the real essence of my existence.
steph